Ever found yourself going CRAZY trying to figure it all out, like HOW and WHY THIS and THAT is happening NOW or ISN’T happening at all? And sorta-kinda “How come this life ISN’T fair?!” (And who is actually really “OK” with that concept anyway?)

I mean, it’s kinda like when you are a little kid and your Mom says, “All that matters is the inside that counts, not the outside.” And, yes, everyone “knows” that is the right thing, but do we really agree? And believe it?

Ugh!

These little life-one-liners, so easy and so simple to SAY and yet SO challenging, SO hard, and dare I say, sometimes feels SO impossible to live out? It is a stinker: the looking at life and seeing, well, it IS unfair, and how does that balance out and work? Like, shouldn’t it be basic Christian Concept MATH: 1+1=2? For example, 1 good GOD-Girl + One-Good-GOD-Girl Choice = “2 perfectly perfect lives,” one for me and one for my family, thank you very much!

And yet, whoa, NO perfection here! NO super simple easy world!

And I have caught myself before (only once or twice ever, I swear—LOL!) looking out at OTHERS and wondering “Look at the ease of their lives?” Or, more honestly (here is a truth, you guys) looking out at the BAD things they DO and yet how “blessed” their life is! (OUCH! NOT a pretty thought, but it has been a real one in my mind. Ugh!)

It’s like, where is the FAIRNESS in this life, huh? And yet, I dipped into Ecclesiastes today and read what that oh-so-wise guy (aka King Solomon) has to say about THAT, and that, well, turns out life isn’t fair (a shock! a gasp!!) and that, well, “good things” happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people ALL the time and so, what’s a girl gonna DO with THAT little treasure?

Well, maybe it’s not so much what I am going to DO with it but HOW I CHOOSE to look at it. Maybe, since it is in the BIBLE, it is TIME to start to VIEW it as a TRUTH (and as a truth, really, should I really try to fight against it? Wouldn’t that be as silly a fighting against GRAVITY? (Oh, hand me an apple, Newton! ☺)

I have to ask myself:

1) Why I am trying to force my life to fall into being MY IDEA of “GOOD” all the time?

2) Why not maybe even CHOOSE to be a bit more “Grown-Up-God-girl” style and start to see past the surface of what is happening and begin to review and REDEFINE what “good” and “bad” actually are?

“Huh?” I hear you say? 🙂

Well, it’s like what sometimes seems like a GOOD thing (for example, some random soccer mom eating some random box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch Cereal randomly right before bed on some random recent soccer trip just for a random example ☺☺) in the short term, can actually BE NOT a great thing in the end. And the BAD things, well, they can actually turn out to be BLESSINGS that I never saw coming, IF I CHOOSE to ride them out with GOD and HIS ways, right until the end.

Hmm, challenging thoughts, BUT I have seen this in my small world to be TRUE over and over again! (I guess there really isn’t anything “new under the sun.” Go figure. ☺)

For example, my husband nearly died 10 years ago (aka NOT a FUN experience), but THROUGH that journey, well, we all learned so much, RE-focused our whole lives and changed a whole lot of what we choose to do. And THIS has led us to say for a long time now, his near death WAS one of the “biggest blessings” (we never want to do again) BUT that we would now never give up going through!

And looking from GOD’s Perspective, it really jump-started us on a path of our passions, purpose and pursuits. It’s SO TRUE!

So now, I wonder and challenge myself to do THAT with other “bad” things in my world around me, to start to see them through HIS eyes and not mine so that maybe, just MAYBE, in the end, if I CHOOSE to follow GOD and hold on FIRMLY to HIS promises all the way to the end, they might just land out to be the BEST things for my SOUL—again!

But better than just me wondering about it, I read it in GOD’s WORD that it is an unshakable, undeniable FACT! And because it a FACT, I am choosing to take all that time, effort and energy that went into wondering “WHY is this happening” and “Why is it UNFAIR” and use it instead to REDEFINE what good, bad, blessing might actually BE.

And it has started to shift what and how I say (or WANT to say) they are to what GOD has to say they mean. (HE just might know a thing or two more than this crazy lady. ☺) And so, no more the constant asking of “Why is this happening.” It is now about the possibility: “What is this meant for me to grow?” and maybe even “What could it grow into being used for HIM or for OTHERS?”

Points to ponder, ladies, and the more I totally took the challenge to poke at the problems in my life, the more I totally began to SEE how all along the way, HE totally had a purpose and plan for US, and OTHERS, in its ALL.

Truth is, ladies, sometimes I have learnt it is just best to “shrug my spiritual shoulders,” give up fighting the UNFAIR and CHOOSE instead to “just trust” in the PROCESS and PROMISES HE has placed in HIS WORD. So, I hunkered down and hunker in and focus only on KNOWING and GROWING in HIS truth more and more each day, no matter “the good the bad and the ugly.”

Time to make the good GOD CHANGES in life happen—one CHOICE at a time—but always, my friends, BASED on HIS TRUTH.

Where will you CHOOSE to use your time and energy today?

Much love (and many mistakes later—LOL!)

Carol 😉